Friendship is quite an amazing thing but at the same time it is either annoying and thin lined. Most of my life Ive had very few close friends that i could count on, not counting relationships, and a girl named Ren Hammett is truly one of the best friends i have ever got to befriend. But at the same time she sometimes annoys the freakin hell out of me. Thats not a completely bad thing, i still love her immensely. Its just every now and then shes a little too much. Somehow we became friends even though we're exact opposites, Shes a prep, im a goth, shes happy and hyper, im usually quiet and seclusive. And being so happy and hyper she seems attracted to other people who are also happy and hyper, sometimes leaving me all by my lonesome. I know that she doesnt mean it but still i cant help but feel aggravated every now and then.

Another example would be how today the junior and seniors were at Target buying clothes for the unfortunate and she and i were in line to get a drink at the starbucks there. I thought we would have a great time together, since we would be able to hang out and get to tell each other jokes and what not but then her leader said something about wanting to go to IHOP and she immediately ran off, leaving me in her dust. I tried to call after her but since my own team was still waiting for their drinks i had to stay there. That doesnt sound too bad if they hadnt actually left Jon behind(he was part of their group too). My group had to give him a ride back to school. I can understand blowing me off, but leaving one of your friends behind? Ren and Jon are best friends! I cant believe she forgot him! (btw Jon is mah black brotherxD so we had a great time on the ride back) If it wasnt for Jon i think my anger wouldve tripled by the time we got back to school.

I love Ren and i love who she is but she doesnt understand how much shes shaking our friendship. Something else, Shes denying that she has a crush on this guy at school and i KNOW she likes him cuz she always get angry when he talks to other people and she was actually JEALOUS when he and I were assigned to be in the same group. If that isnt young love, i dont know what is.

Im sorry if this journal bored you but i just needed to get this off my chest cuz this is probably the only way i can unless i put up a bulletin on myspace...anyway, ill talk to you all later!