L.M.B.Y.R Chapter 14

Let Me Be Your Reason

Chapter 14:

The next morning, Timmy found himself wandering through the halls of Anti-Cosmo's mansion leaving Cosmo in the bedroom still asleep. His stomach growled for food, but he soon became interested in all the large mansion had in store for him. Walking into the main hallway, a scent of delicious tea suddenly hit his nostrils. His blue eyes journeyed towards the very large dining room where he saw Anti-Cosmo himself sitting all alone at the wooden table, and sipping at a cup. Before he could gather the courage to present himself, a single thought suddenly hit him. Anti-Cosmo looked so lonely. So, where was Anti-Wanda?

The anti-fairy suddenly noticed Timmy watching him and smiled. He waved his gloved hand stating, "Come in, Timothy. Would you like a glass?"

Timmy smiled slightly and nodded. He walked quickly towards Anti-Cosmo and sat down beside him. Anti-Cosmo poured him a glass of tea into a small china cup before giving it to the boy knowing that he would adore it.

Taking the cup, Timmy sipped at the tea before stating with a grin, "Wow. This is really good!"

"I'm glad you like it," Anti-Cosmo replied leaning against one arm. "It's made from very exotic herbs that were found right here in Anti-Fairy World."

"Interesting," Timmy whispered before taking a long drink practically draining the cup of its contents.

Anti-Cosmo chuckled softly to himself as he watched the boy his counterpart had fallen so deeply in love with. His smile saddened till he found the courage to ask, "Timothy, may I ask why you are in love with Cosmo?"

Timmy suddenly stopped drinking his tea, before turning his gaze back to the anti-fairy and asked, "What do you mean?"

"I just don't understand how a fourteen year old boy could fall in love with his god father."

Timmy was silent for quite a few minutes looking down at his almost empty glass before he finally answered, "I don't understand it myself really. Cosmo was, at first, just my very close friend. He and Wanda became my salvation at the Asylum I'm staying at. They made my wishes come true. They made me feel loved. And, they showed me just how much Miss Graves, Dr. Shelley, Aaron, and Elena really care for me. I...owe them everything."

"So, what happened?"

"I needed a reason to live. Miss Graves and Dr. Shelley have each other. Aaron and Elena are great, but they need to worry about themselves. Wanda doesn't need me. Cosmo...was just there."

"What do you mean?"

"He was there when I really needed him. One night, my father had destroyed any sense left in me, and I had decided to throw myself off the Asylum walls. But, Cosmo stopped me. No, he did more than that. He told me how much he loved me. He told me that if I died, then he would die as well. He didn't just want him to become my reason for living. He wanted me to become his as well."

Anti-Cosmo sat there for a few seconds pondering over what the young boy had told him till he smiled softly and whispered, "I see. So, Cosmo finally found someone he can truly love."

Suddenly, the anti-fairy asked him a question that would make Timmy question everything about his relationship, "But, what happens after you turn eighteen?"

Timmy eyes widened slightly before asking, "What?"

"You did read Da Rules, didn't you?"

"W-Well, yes. But, not all of it just yet. What happens when I turn eighteen?"

Anti-Como sighed before leaning back in his chair and stating, "You become an adult, and Cosmo and Wanda must leave you."

"What?!" Timmy exclaimed. "They're just going to leave me?!"

"Calm down, Timothy," Anti-Cosmo replied coolly. "They'll wipe your memory first. You won't remember a thing."

Timmy looked down at his empty tea glass before whispering, "I...I won't remember a thing...?"

"I'm surprised Cosmo hasn't told you yet," Anti-Cosmo stated getting up from his chair. "Maybe you two need to do some talking."

As Anti-Cosmo exited the dining room, a single tear fell from Timmy's eyes to fall onto the wooden table. But, he soon wiped away that tear and any trying to come forth. He quickly thought to himself, "Yeah, maybe we do need to talk."

He left the empty glass on the table and ran after the anti-fairy seeing him beginning to walk up a long stairway. Running to the bottom of the stairs, he quickly asked Anti-Cosmo, "May I ask you a question then?"

Anti-Cosmo stopped walking for a second before replying, "Go ahead."

Timmy took a deep breath before asking, "Why did you look so lonely this morning? Where is Anti-Wanda?"

Suddenly, Timmy heard the sound of glass breaking and saw pieces of Anti-Cosmo's cup fall the stairs below him. He was about to apologize when suddenly the anti-fairy responded coldly with his back till facing Timmy, "Anti-Wanda does not live here anymore."

Despite his sudden urge to leave, Timmy asked, "W-Why?"

Anti-Cosmo let the other broken pieces of his cup fall to the floor as he stated, "We separated quite a few years ago. It was not worth trying to live a dream marriage our counterparts could not even live. It was foolish of us to think we could fall in love in time. All those years...wasted. But, I suppose that really is the curse of being an anti-fairy."

As Anti-Cosmo continued walking up the stairs, Timmy stood there in the hallway pondering about all the things that had just happened. He swallowed a huge lump in his throat before walking up the stairs as well heading back to his bedroom. He found Cosmo and Wanda out in the hallway talking with each other. They soon noticed him and flew over asking him, "Ready for the big day?"

Shaking off what Anti-Cosmo had told him, Timmy smiled softly and stated, "Yeah. I am."

About an hour later, Cosmo, Wanda, Anti-Cosmo, and Timmy were walking down a long narrow road behind the mansion. Even though it was early morning, the sun barely shone in Anti-Fairy World making the deserted roads seemed even more frightening. Cosmo asked the question all of them were wondering, "Why can't we just poof there?"

"Because the spring is guarded by a number of magic shields that would never allow any of us to just poof there," Anti-Cosmo replied a little coldly.

Timmy kept his mouth shut when Cosmo looked a little offended knowing it was partially his fault the anti-fairy was in a bad mood. They continued journeying till the dark sun in the horizon peeked over the bare trees. Suddenly, they all saw a large crater in the ground a few yards away. In front of the crater was a tall black metal gate surrounding the entire thing with a couple anti-fairy guards standing at attention.

Anti-Cosmo flew over to the guards as Cosmo, Wanda, and Timmy ran over. He nodded to the guards who opened the gates as Timmy came closer. Taking a deep breath, Timmy walked inside the gates quickly before they shut behind him. Cosmo and Wanda's eyes widened as they exclaimed, "Wait! Can't we go with him?"

Anti-Cosmo shook his head stating, "Only the person visiting his fallen may enter the Springs."

Timmy looked at Cosmo and Wanda nervously before telling them with a smile, "Don't worry. I'll be fine."

He turned his back to them before he heard Cosmo shout, "Timmy!"

Turning back around, he saw Cosmo smiling as he whispered, "Good luck."

Timmy smiled and nodded before walking deeper into the crater. Not long after, he saw the entrance to a huge cave. His heart fluttered a little in fright when he saw the complete darkness inside, but he slowly continued walking. Inside the dark cave, he couldn't even see his own hand in front of his face. His heart began pounding, but he took one step at a time telling himself it would all be worthwhile.

Suddenly, a small beam of light hit his eyes blinding him for a second. He covered his eyes till he began walking towards the light. The closer he got, the larger the beam became till he came to the entrance of an incredible sight. He was standing in a large cavern lighted by a statue of a woman hanging from the ceiling. She was holding an enormous white crystal in her hands that shone over a large pool of water in the middle of the room.

Slowly walking forward, Timmy jumped when a soft voice echoed through the room, "Whom do wish to see?"

He looked around the room for a few seconds till he looked up at the statue and stating, "My mother. Diana Alcott Turner."

The voice did not sound again, but suddenly a drop of water formed in the statue's eyes and fell like a tear into the pool of water. A mist suddenly covered the area as Timmy's heart began beating frantically wondering if his wish was finally going to be granted. A few minutes passed and his eyes widened as suddenly, a figure appeared in the waters. It was a woman dressed in all white robes. Her hair was chocolate brown and cascaded down her back in beautiful waves. She turned to look at Timmy with gorgeous sapphire eyes as he smiled bigger than he had in years.

His mother, Diana, smiled as well and said, "Hello, son."

Timmy instantly ran forth splashing through the water till he reached his mother and embraced her tightly as tears streamed down in his eyes. He heard Diana's soft chuckle and embraced her even tighter shouting, "Mother! It's really you!"

"Of course it's me, Timmy," she replied wrapping her arms around her son. "I'm so happy to see you again, darling."

Timmy loosened his grip for just a second so that he could look in her eyes and said, "I'm happy to see you too. You don't know how hard it's been..."

"Oh, I think I do. I've been watching you," Diana whispered with a pained smile.

"I was afraid of that..." Timmy whispered back avoiding her gaze.

Diana took Timmy's head in her hands before whispering, "You have nothing to be ashamed of, son. I watched as your father continued to mistreat you even after my death. I cried that night when I saw you try to take your own life. And, I'm sorry I was not there to stop you."

"Please, mother. Tell me...why did you leave me?"

Diana looked away from her son's gaze before whispering slowly, "I'm sorry. I cannot tell you."

"W-Why not?"

She shook her head whispering, "I'm sorry."

Silence surrounded them till Timmy smiled and whispered, "It doesn't matter now. You're here. And, mother...I've found my reason to live."

Diana smiled softly replying, "I saw. He's quite an interesting man to fall in love with. But, I can tell he will take good care of you. If not, I'm sure Wanda will beat some sense into him."

They both shared a good chuckle before they walked off to the shore and sat down on the ground. Timmy told his mother, "So, I guess you've seen Aaron and Elena too?"

"Yes, they're both quite characters," Diana stated with a chuckle. "You might want to be smart around Aaron, though. Seems like, he could easily fall for you, too, if he hasn't already."

"I doubt it," Timmy replied chuckling as well. "I assume you've been watching Miss Graves too?"

"Oh, yes," Diana replied with a grin. "She always told me she would fall for a doctor, but I never took her seriously. Dr. Shelley does seem to be the right man for her. They'll make each other happy, I'm sure."

For about an hour, Diana and Timmy sat with each other laughing about the old times, and sharing new stories about the time they had been apart. When all the stories had been told, silence overcame the cavern till Timmy slowly asked, "Mother...do you ever watch over Father anymore?"

Diana looked away from her son till she replied, "I did for the first year, but then I stopped right around the time he got remarried."

When Timmy didn't reply, she put on a fake smile and whispered, "It is quite common for a man to remarry after his wife's death..."

"He never deserved you," Timmy suddenly stated.

Diana chuckled sadly whispering, "Timmy, if it wasn't for him, you would never have existed."

"I realize that, I just...I never noticed how badly he had treated you till you died."

"He didn't treat me that badly," Diana replied with a frown. "I was more worried over how he treated you than me."

"He treated you like a piece of property!" Timmy suddenly shouted standing up. "He was so degrading to you! How can you try to defend him-"

"He was jealous of you," Diana stated interrupting Timmy's rant.

Timmy's eyes widened before he whispered, "What...?"

Diana stood up as well before telling her son and looking straight into his eyes, "Before you were born, I gave all my attention to Damion. I showered him with love as he did to me. But, when you were born, my love turned from him to you. There was barely a moment I was separated from you. Damion became jealous over the fact that I had begun to love you more than I did him. He put you through all those hard times because he wanted to see if you could take it. When you did take it, he just became angry at himself till he stopped trying. It was truly my fault all of this happened."

"No! It's his fault!" Timmy shouted with tears dotting his eyes. "He's the reason my life has always been a hell! He's the reason I tried to take my own life! He's the reason you took yours, right? He has to be!"

"Oh, Timmy...you don't understand," Diana told him softly walking towards him.

"No, I don't understand!" Timmy shouted. "I don't understand how you keep saying it's all your fault when it must be his! We could have had a better life, but then you committed suicide! I don't understand why! I don't understand-"

Suddenly, Timmy stopped his rant as something dawned on him. His eyes widened as his breathing grew erratic. Diana looked at her son with worry in her eyes whispering, "Timmy...?"

When he didn't answer, she walked over to him placing a hand on his shoulder and asked, "Timmy, are you alright-?"

"-He did it...didn't he?"

"What?" Diana asked at his sudden question.

But, her own eyes widened as suddenly Timmy spoke the truth that she had hoped to keep from him for the rest of his life, "He killed you...didn't he?"